Tuesday 19 February 2013

Metamorphosis

 About to hit 47 in about 10 days time. Call it mid life crisis or life re-evaluation, but I feel it's time for a change. I think if my 16 year old self could reach out and see me now, they would be afraid of the future.  Although, not idealistic or ambitious, I had hopes that the future would be rich and fulfilling and that I would grow as a person. I find now that I am a shrunken version of the girl I used to be. Although I have wonderful people and things in my life, I feel that there is something lacking in me.
   Life has proved to be a lot harder than I could have imagined and there have been personal losses that have moulded me in a way that, both physically and mentally, have not been beneficial. My aim now is to reclaim some of the hope and love of life that was lost along the way in the last 30 years and start a fresh chapter, ergo the blog. Technology kind of past me by for a long time and this is one of the worlds I wish to discover. I know I can't be the only middle aged person out there who is tentatively dipping their toe into the pond that is internet blogging and I hope to find others as I go along, who like me, are just starting out and hopefullyI'll pick up some friends along the way.

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    1. Thankyou for introducing me to the world of blogs. Without your encouragement I would never have progressed beyond a kindle.In return I will endeavour not to rant too profusely(this statement can not be relied on long term) and enjoy the experience.

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  2. Welcome to the wonderful blog world! Glad to have you join the tribe! Don't worry about being "technology" deficient, I've been at this for almost 5 years and I still feel like a novice at times. It's your blog, you call the shots and there are no lame topics (trust me, I've done a few). Good luck and Happy Blogging!

    BTW - love the blog name.

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    1. Thankyou for your welcome. The name was the hardest part but I am very happy with it. I'm sure I'll cover lame subjects aplenty as I start to find my feet in blog land.

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    1. RC has always had a very high opinion of my abilities.

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  4. Welcome to blogging, "Mrs. RC!" You've been spoken of very highly over the past several years on your hubby's blog and it's great to finally "meet" you!

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    1. Hey Terri,it's strange to "meet" someone who has been party to so many aspects of our family life for so long.So many things have happened in our lives I used to think that if we wrote it down nobody would believe it.We are chaos and disaster magnets and I am glad you and your family have been there for RC as he has blogged his way through it all and still managed to remain as silly and lovely as he has always been.

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    2. One thing that is clear about all of you is that through thick and thin, you stick together. I admire your ability to work through it all with humor and grace and love. RC and I and a few others all began blogging around the same time and some of us remain a tight circle of friends. I'm SO happy you're joining us now!

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  5. I was the last one in my family to "dip into the internet pond" (love that!), but I've been blogging for a few years now and don't know how I lived without it. I think you'll really enjoy the doors it can open up for you.
    Like Terri said, you've been highly spoken of by your wonderful hubby, and I'm excited to have you join the club!

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    1. I hated being the dinosaur in the house who looked over everyones' shoulder as they blogged and googled saying"what's that?", "how do you know that?". Technology scared me but Facebook reconnected me with family and friends I had not seen in years. I love the idea that I can share a part of RC's world that he is so enthusiastic about,he is so funny when he is worked up about something. It's great to think there is somewhere to off load when I just have to say it,rather than biting my lip and letting it pass.

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  6. Cheers! Caught you from Rock Chef's blog. Happy almost b.day, and welcome!

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    1. Thankyou for your welcome and birthday wishes.

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  7. Interesting that you think of yourself as midlife age, but I suppose that is correct, but from my vantage point you are a young-un. I have read about birthdays and holidays you and RC and your family spent over the years, so I know your birthday will be fun for you. I hope you enjoy your blogging experience and that you make your blog into what you want.

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    1. I think my outlook has always been more mature than my age.There has to be a grown up in the house and RC is the perpetual fountain of youth and never ages in looks or attitude(our teenagers ask him to turn his music down). I'm looking forward to my birthday as we are on a roll with valentines going so well.I'm sure my blog will give me an outlet to talk about those things that you see or think when there's no one around to share them with.

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  8. Hellooooo! Rock Chef sent me :)
    Welcome to "the pond"! Blogging sort of saved me several years ago from becoming a boring housewife... I hope.

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    1. I know exactly what you mean. Life does become very condensed and insular when you're a housewife. I'm nosey by nature and blogs are so interesting. I'm looking forward to finding new friends and seeing how they live their lives.

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  9. I run into you over at Fiftyodd's blog. You have written a very lovely and touching first post. I have also often felt as though I have not lived my life to the fullest extent. I seem to bounce off the obstacles that life throws in our path. Always reacting, never in control. I often wonder when will I grow up. Better make it soon, I pushing 64. Shrunken version of our teen personas is an excellent description. Life is much harder than what we realize in our teens, and having read your profile, I know your life has been much harder than most. I don't think there is any worse of a loss...children should bury the parents, not the reverse. My sympathies to you and your family.

    I hope that blogging will help you reflect and expand your horizons, and hopefully give you a deeper understanding of yourself and life's joys and travesties. Don't be afraid to put yourself into your posts. You are an excellent writer and I think you have much to say beyond the routines of daily life.

    This was a wonderful first post, keep up the good work. Good luck with your blog.

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    1. Thankyou so much for your words of encouragement. I am so enjoying sharing my thoughts with others and have found it very therapeutic.

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